Jenova Returns

So basically yesterday I was stressed (should I use that word? my mother uses it) because of my media project, and because of my french exams. After long exchanges with various secretaries, I've decided that I'm going to do the exams, even though I'm gonna have to pay the £45 for them and claim it back. But can you believe that? Only people who actually have money can take exams.
What's up with that?

Then I cheered up because I made the website for my media work (http://www.freewebs.com/howtodestroyarelationship) and did some filming. After helping Becca for a few hours today (without thanks, in typical Becca style), I had the chance to film one scene for my project. I'm rather behind. Anyway, radio was fun.

Irene called me during a lesson, so I had to sneak out to call her back. She wants to meet up with me at 6:15 tonight for a meeting on how to do this presentation that I've volunteered myself to do next Tuesday. I'm screwed. I can't do it at all. And I've missed so much school lately. The downside of pulling out is that I'll lose the shreds of credibility that I have at the youth club, Andrea, Helen and Irene will like me even less, and I feel bad because Becca will probably have to do it. What do I do? I'm lost.

Talking of Becca, her and Karen arranged to go to see a play at the Green Room that my drama teacher's in, without inviting me. This also means that I have to go to this meeting with Irene alone tonight. I'm not happy. I swore at a little girl yesterday because she was being annoying.

If any of my friends read this, they'll like me just that little bit less. Who am I kidding? Nobody reads this. Becca's media project has-- no wait, HAD the potential to be good. Now I think it's gone down a little bit. I'll be amazed if it works. My project's future is looking bleak too, but at least Becca's GOT a storyline she could use. But no, it's random crap. And she even said, "It's not about what's in it, it's about the editing and stuff." But if that's her idea of media coursework, then it might as well be the Spice Girls thing Dawn and that have done. I'm sorry, but I am really, really angry and basically fed up. I'm not happy with being an afterthought. David Itchywhatever likes me in that way. He's a creep, to be honest. Can't I just tell him? "You're creepy! Go away." Why do I have to have a conscience? It's annoying. And what the fuck is up with Mike!? He's all over me one minute, then ignoring me the next. And it turns out that he didn't go to Agent Phil's workshop, which pisses me off. David and Simon are complete twats when it comes to Phil. Screw Mike. And I like a straight guy in that way. He could very easily be gay, and as much as I'd love him to be, I know he really isn't, which makes me a bit sad, because he's amazing.