Done, done, done with all the fuck, fuck, fucking around.

Might as well add. My supposed utmost-greatest-friend-in-the-world-ever-or-something told me to give up while I was trying to learn something on the keyboard at the other-best-friend-'s house.

I know I'm terrible. I don't need reminded. How does anyone get better at anything if they've never tried? I mean. I've never had piano lessons like she has. I've never had acting lessons like she has. You know why? Because I couldn't afford to. And she takes all this for granted? Moaning about drama exams and suchlike. Things I can only dream about. She's auditioning for the National Youth Theatre. The National Youth Theatre. And I'm not ashamed to admit that I'm fucking jealous.